I Took a Break...
Updated: Mar 23, 2020
I Took A Break… and here’s what happened…
I planned to take two weeks off. Christmas through New Years. A time to forget about photography for a while, to forget about marketing to potential clients, and to stop editing for a couple of late nights. I planned for two weeks. I said my farewells on Friday I packed up my stuff and Saturday went by with a little longing. But Sunday was unbearable! I couldn’t help but think about my photography… concepts… the women I strive to serve with every session.
How many things in our lives do we put off, say we’ll do it when the time comes around? Over time, those ideas become more romanticized and eventually the thought of them becomes way more appealing than the actual practice.
I wanted to get back to my music practice, maybe finish the album I’ve been working on for years. But when I sat down I realized something very important… I love what I do. There is nothing I’d rather do in life. And there is a power that came with that. An acceptance.
I’ve been struggling for the past year with my own identity. Who is this guy who stands behind the camera? Could I be better serving the world as an accountant, or a musician, or a writer, or even a pastor? My hesitance to follow a path has lead to my life being a mess.
Have you ever felt that way? Like you weren’t sure where your life was going to take you? Like there were far too many choices ahead of you and you just don’t know which road to head down.
There is a clarity that comes when you make a decision, and a sense of fulfilment that comes when you recognize that that road is the road meant for you. This process has really made it clear to me what I need to do and how I should be approaching my clients.
Have you ever struggled with imposter syndrome? You show up to work and can’t believe it’s YOUR job. How could anyone pay ME to do this? That’s how I’ve felt for the past three years as a boudoir photographer. I LOVE what I do, and I feel the impact it could have. But I have felt a buffer between my work and me. And taking this break has made me recognize that the barrier is self-inflicted.
I’ve been afraid to encourage women to be sexual! To express that side of themselves. For fear that someone would see it in a wrong light and think something improper. In the beginning years of my business I had a couple women attack me for my dreams. And I’m so sick of that energy! It has no place at ElegantOrchid.
So here’s what I want you to do. I don’t care where on the planet you are. I want you to book a boudoir photo session! If you are in the Tampa area, I’d love to have you book one with me! Come out to Clearwater and let’s meet face to face first! But I want you to find a good photographer, and I want you to unleash your sexuality. Be 100% the gorgeous women I know you are.